Dear Craig,

Where do I even begin? A few days ago I had the best day of my life because of you. I went to the best D.R.U.G.S. show/show in general that I’ve ever been to. And I met you for the second time and got to tell you what I’ve wanted to tell you for years, that your music has literally saved my life, and I can’t even begin to explain how much that means to me and how happy I am that you were so sweet about it and hugged me. It means more to me than you’ll ever know.

I’ve never told this to anyone before, but a few months ago I almost ended my life. I was cutting and I had a bottle of pills in my hand and I was going to do it. But then Laminated E.T. Animal started playing on my iPod. Once the familiar guitar strums of that song started, it instantly comforted me. And I thought about what you’ve said the song is about; people who feel like they’re alone in the world, and that you promise they’re not. I didn’t go through with it because of that promise and because of that song coming on. That’s why I want to get the lyrics “If we keep fighting who we are, we won’t hit anything” tattooed on me someday, and the next time I meet you I’ll ask you to write them down so I can get it done in your handwriting. I want the words that saved my life permanently on my body.

I haven’t cut since then, but even though I still struggle with it, your music gets me through every day. It continues to save my life every day. Your music, your inspiring words, everything, has been there when no one else has. One of my favorite things you’ve tweeted is this: “Never cry alone. Promise me that. No-one around? Put on your headphones, I’m right here. Always have been, always will be. You’re not alone.” I put that quote next to my poster of you that I have next to my bed. When I look at that quote, I do what it says, I put on my headphones and listen to your music and I feel better. I have a playlist that consists of every band/project/featured song you’ve ever been a part of (I might be missing a few, but there’s 87 songs on it so I think I’m pretty close) and whenever I feel like I’m going to cut, I put that playlist on shuffle and I put the razor down.

Thank you for that. Thank you for giving me the strength and inspiration that I need. You’re my hero. I believe in you, Craig. I’m proud of everything you’ve done and I know you’re going to continue to do amazing things and keep making beautiful music that saves lives. I’ve never loved a band more than I love D.R.U.G.S. and I’m always going to support you guys.

Love, forever,
Amy. <3

Submitted by Vivalaamyy